It had been nothing but busy since the semester started and i feel like my brain and energy are slowly draining out as the week comes. I've finally get the time to update on lil bits of the busy week and not to forget, my birthday! :) Well, in this very busy time i went through, i learn a lot about being really independent and i also learn to expect less than more and getting disappointment at the end. I am finally 20, and one day while i started sitting down in my room doing nothing, i thought of everything in the past. I know, past should always stay in the past, but every journey you will learn something new right?
Applying for internship is pretty much a not-fun-at-all thing. Getting no reply from companies already gives you less hope, what more of being rejected. Learning to accept the rejection is part of growing stronger for me and of course not giving up so easily. I keep telling myself, 'twenty already, have to learn a lot of things, and be more independent. no one is gonna be there with you every single time and learn to give in more.' Then it hit me about what i've gone through in the past. I complain less and instead, take the time i have to find the solution to my problems. I expect less from people, and i just give because giving is part of joy in life. I also don't expect for people to be there for me 24/7 regardless who it is. If i can do it all by myself, i should.
I've put so much confusion in my brain and keep bringing back the past that im living in the past instead. And now, im confused about who i actually am and where i am heading. It's to get back in the road and be blessed of what i have, just keep smiling because God put people that pull you down to make you stronger. Never forget, those who hurt me, i should thanked them because they opened up my eyes to new things which make me learn, being sad about them is fine, but not forever. They will never stay in your life forever and they won't make any difference with their presence, so why be sad about it?
5th December came, this year, i really did not hope for a celebration, or probably 'demand' for stuff as my present. I honestly told someone 'I wish i could just lock myself in the room and not answer the phone or check my laptop, neither did wish for celebrations. Please save the money.' Some go like 'nonsense, it's Janice. She always say that but she wants the opposite.' You know what? I didn't bother explaining further because it's the mindset of people and i can't change them. All i did was stay in my room, go for classes as usual and be blessed with all the wishes and surprised i got. Guess what, every surprises i got, literally almost make me tear so bad. It all came so unexpectedly. Felt so blessed, felt so thankful and of course Thank you God for such wonderful blessings. At the end of the day, i actually wish that my birthday don't end so that i can keep thanking each and everyone of them.
This year, all i wished was 'I hope my day will get better each day.' So many more things out there that i need to learn and adapt to. Hoping that my internship application go smooth and my internship will be good as well. 15 more days to the new year and i pray that everyone will have a blessed year ahead! Ending this with so much love. With this, i sign off.
Jan. ;)
Applying for internship is pretty much a not-fun-at-all thing. Getting no reply from companies already gives you less hope, what more of being rejected. Learning to accept the rejection is part of growing stronger for me and of course not giving up so easily. I keep telling myself, 'twenty already, have to learn a lot of things, and be more independent. no one is gonna be there with you every single time and learn to give in more.' Then it hit me about what i've gone through in the past. I complain less and instead, take the time i have to find the solution to my problems. I expect less from people, and i just give because giving is part of joy in life. I also don't expect for people to be there for me 24/7 regardless who it is. If i can do it all by myself, i should.
I've put so much confusion in my brain and keep bringing back the past that im living in the past instead. And now, im confused about who i actually am and where i am heading. It's to get back in the road and be blessed of what i have, just keep smiling because God put people that pull you down to make you stronger. Never forget, those who hurt me, i should thanked them because they opened up my eyes to new things which make me learn, being sad about them is fine, but not forever. They will never stay in your life forever and they won't make any difference with their presence, so why be sad about it?
5th December came, this year, i really did not hope for a celebration, or probably 'demand' for stuff as my present. I honestly told someone 'I wish i could just lock myself in the room and not answer the phone or check my laptop, neither did wish for celebrations. Please save the money.' Some go like 'nonsense, it's Janice. She always say that but she wants the opposite.' You know what? I didn't bother explaining further because it's the mindset of people and i can't change them. All i did was stay in my room, go for classes as usual and be blessed with all the wishes and surprised i got. Guess what, every surprises i got, literally almost make me tear so bad. It all came so unexpectedly. Felt so blessed, felt so thankful and of course Thank you God for such wonderful blessings. At the end of the day, i actually wish that my birthday don't end so that i can keep thanking each and everyone of them.
This year, all i wished was 'I hope my day will get better each day.' So many more things out there that i need to learn and adapt to. Hoping that my internship application go smooth and my internship will be good as well. 15 more days to the new year and i pray that everyone will have a blessed year ahead! Ending this with so much love. With this, i sign off.
Jan. ;)
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