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12/2

Hey! Im back here to , apparently so called destress for a while. Exam is definitely exhausting especially when you have no time,time is definitely crucial at the moment and you have to take up few hours of your sleep time. The paper today was more to a disappointment in myself but i still put the faith and pray for the best.

So imma gonna continue from where i stop. I will blog as if it is on the day itself okay, don't get confused.

6/2 

So today, woke up seeing people wishing each other happy birthday and coincidently it's my friends birthday. I thought it was just another with lots of birthday people but my friend send it to the group chat and i was like 'umm happy birthday?' Later she explained about the chinese new year seventh day. I got so interested and literally wikipedia it. You can read it further from what i screenshot. Glad enough to know about this. :) 

7/2 

HAHAHA! Today, while i was checking my email, this place call plurk send me and email to inform me that i got a follower. Teenage being teenage, singing up for random things. I forgot i even had one of this. Its something almost similar to twitter. I got so interested, started reading on what i used to plurk about and my last plurk was like 4 years ago? Laughing so hard at what i plurk and still couldn't believe how much i grew up since then. It is all these memories that brings you a little joy sometimes. 

8/2

Tired from studying, came home midnight, cleaned up and did my daily routine again. Checked dayre for new post from people i follow. More to like stalking audrey ooi, timothy tiah and fighter tiah. Lol lol. It's nice reading okay, they 3 are like the cutest family ive ever seen. Then, this dayre-er caught my attention. Her name is Suet Li. Her blog is sweatlee.com. 

For a moment i thought like she must be quite famous lah seeing the number of followers right not. Not judging but true what,famous people always have loads of followers. I started reading on her past dayre post. Fascinated by her posting up about her teaching life. 

Then i googled for her name(stalker level 99), watch her teaching documentary on magseven and cry while she cried. So touching lor! I am totally inspired by things she does for the country. Dayum! She join teach for Malaysia(tfm) and started teaching in a rural school. I always see my university club's promote TFM but i never caught a glimpse at it because when i see the word teaching and i look ar myself, it just dont click. Kinda like epic fail. NOT looking down on myself, but i am seriouslah. I not that smart also. If you guys wanna know more then go to sweatlee.com . 

9/2

Lock myself in room all day long because i needed to finish up the leftover for the paper next day. No where to head to so i vain in room lor. The fact is that, no matter how i lock myself, so many other things can distract me. Even a fly that flies aroud, ants that crawl pass me etc. 

10/2

Nervous breakdown in the morning. Paper in the afternoon and this finals can make me cry a lot because i cannot afford to have supp or fail. Im praying so hard to not have anyone of it. I dont know how the paper went but i hope it satisfieses the marks. And then marathon to prepare for the next paper on the 12.

11/2 

Been practising statistics for the whole day i feel like stabbing my brain because i just dont enjoy doing calculation. I have a slow brain. The one thing i dislike is that wheb im concentrating on mu studies and finally try not to be distracted by the little things, OTHER PEOPLE have to do it. The guy in the opposite block was annoying enough to piss me off with the firecrakers that sound like a bomb. And it was continuous. I told myself to breathe, chill and keep calm and then the phone call came in telling me there's fire. I thought it was some major fire in the building to know that it's the forest nearby. Feel so bad that at my-piss-off-moment i said 'dont tell me unless the exam hall burn down' because then i can have extra days to study. Now to think back, i cant take back my words but i feel bad for saying that. 

Here is the super huge fire at the forest behind my university. Too big. Im sorry but it actually looks pretty. 

And then, came today. 12/2 sitting on the bed past midnight still feeling disappointed with myself answering my statistic. Attach along with few other problems. I teared, again. I couldnt control it. I feel really down while the worship song channeling into my ear canal. 

I hope you had a great week. Mind to share? Thank you for your little time in my space. Back to my books and coming back for more updates. 

Love, Jan