Patience and silence

#onethingiregretmostinlife

Is being to care so much of others and neglected my own feelings. And when i promised to not bother, it just seem so hard because i feel bad. I feel bad that i just take away the other person's joy. I still dont know what i love in putting people's joy ahead of mine but i definitely enjoy looking at others being happy. But no, not everyone used that term correctly. People seem to just trembles over and start hurting.

Sometimes people are just so used to getting the joy from you, you just have to reject one thing, and they go all fuss about it because they think you are not being a good friend anymore.

I practically dont enjoy university life at all. People are so mean here. People can just separate you because you didnt live up to their expectations. I think this is so scary. If you were to tell me 'you should try to walk through this because in working life it is double times'. Yes indeed i fail to take up the challenges because i dont understand why cant people just be more understanding.

Why is it that instead of being treated nicely, we have to try to take up the challenge and live in the real world that is filled with so many mean and not understanding people? I am not talking bout bosses or the employer, i just have to talk about the normal employees or in my case, just your classmates.

Ive been so quiet since i came back from intern and i definitely thought i could see in different and better perspective of life but still no. If so, idk what else i can do besides fighting to leave this university.

Struggling and hang on to where i am so i can reach my destination as fast i can. I guess it is so hard to actually explain to people what you feel because they just dont seem to try to understand. Or maybe they just find it silly.