Good day. Merry christmas. Hope that you guys had the best christmas ever! Because i did. It's a perfect one for me and of course the most perfect getaway ever after so long in this semester. Parents just left Malacca after dropping by. Had my birthday present from London. So blessed. :)
I hate coming back to Malacca because it's like returning to this cruel world again. I feel so insecure no matter with who i am with. Not saying that things happen. It's just, one minute it prolly be this, next minute, it will prolly be something else.
He said to me today 'Don't think too much kay? You are just over thinking.' For a moment i really don't know why, i say this with all my heart, i am gonna miss him when he leave. No more car rides, no more 24/7 rescuer. I might judge him wrongly last time, but i promise, no one, can be trusted anymore.
'What goes around comes around'. EVERYTHING literally applied on that. Feeling a little down tonight after everything that i've heard. One after another. I just thought, what's the use asking for forgiveness after you did it and know that you shouldn't.
I asked him, 'Why is some people in this world so cruel?' It breaks my heart. People doing just for the sake of getting what they want and what they are happy for. Hurting the other person? Never ever comes into their mind. If i had a minute to talk to God, i will only ask Him one thing. 'Did i confused myself by coming to the wrong place and trusting people so easily?'
I don't mean to blog, but i am probably keeping everything to myself after this. Better me, better life. I will never like this place unless, it gives me the perfect reason to. After all that happened, i just drowned myself into a deep pool. Goodnight world. Hope things will get better tomorrow. :)
I hate coming back to Malacca because it's like returning to this cruel world again. I feel so insecure no matter with who i am with. Not saying that things happen. It's just, one minute it prolly be this, next minute, it will prolly be something else.
He said to me today 'Don't think too much kay? You are just over thinking.' For a moment i really don't know why, i say this with all my heart, i am gonna miss him when he leave. No more car rides, no more 24/7 rescuer. I might judge him wrongly last time, but i promise, no one, can be trusted anymore.
'What goes around comes around'. EVERYTHING literally applied on that. Feeling a little down tonight after everything that i've heard. One after another. I just thought, what's the use asking for forgiveness after you did it and know that you shouldn't.
I asked him, 'Why is some people in this world so cruel?' It breaks my heart. People doing just for the sake of getting what they want and what they are happy for. Hurting the other person? Never ever comes into their mind. If i had a minute to talk to God, i will only ask Him one thing. 'Did i confused myself by coming to the wrong place and trusting people so easily?'
I don't mean to blog, but i am probably keeping everything to myself after this. Better me, better life. I will never like this place unless, it gives me the perfect reason to. After all that happened, i just drowned myself into a deep pool. Goodnight world. Hope things will get better tomorrow. :)
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