Restless

I just don't know how to put it in words. I don't even know should i blogged about it. I am in the state of confusion, unbelievable, and speechless. Have you ever come across this situation where you just don't know where had gone wrong? You keep blaming yourself for practically everything since you just have no clue what was the mistakes. I had given choices, 'don't give a damn' or 'do something with it'. So reluctant to choose 'don't give a damn' because it hurts lesser, and also ease me up a little.

I admit, i couldn't hold my emotions back and cried. What did i do again this time? I was just trying to be nice, i did not blame you in any way or anything. What hurts me most was, to find out all of these myself without you coming straight up to me and talk. Best of all, you acted all good in front of me and i thought things were going to change. It seems like, i was wrong. Totally wrong. I came to a dead road, i don't know what to do. I don't want to reach the state of hating or disliking you. You were once someone i cared so much.

I don't know how my names were spreading out, i just hope that people come to me to find out the truth before concluding anything. Im sorry, i couldn't help it but to blog. I am depressed bout you doing this to me. I just don't know how you continue doing it without even feeling anything. Maybe, im just one of those who you'll never care to bother. Well, im sorry, sincerely and i just don't know what to do. I pray that things get better.

P.s// What have i done?