June 5th ;
Sitting in front of my laptop while getting rid of my frustration. Sorry, i cannot help having my sleep being disturbed. Nevermind, let's get over it.
Currently playing ; Brooke Fraser, Who Are We Fooling
I miss listening to Brooke Fraser though, i used to repeat her tracks over and over again at home.
Anyway, i was scrolling through pages before i slept last night and found questions that actually i felt brought out the answer in me. Here goes,
1. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
To me i felt like it is failing. I don't know how to put this in words but the feeling of how hard i tried sometimes and still fail makes me feel stupid or in more awful word, useless. Never trying, you will definitely move towards the other directions but if to try and the outcomes are failing, it sucks.
2. When it's all said and done, will you have said more than you've done?
I can't specifically answer that because we as a human tend to not realize it isnt it? BUT, i do know one thing about myself is when someone wants it, i try my very best to get it done for him or her. Yes, i feel like i am living under someone else's happiness instead because to me, i feel satisfied and happy if i successfully made someone smile.
3. What is the one thing you'd most like to change about the world?
Can i say, the people's mind? Or how most people's mind? ONE THING, i am very unhappy at is being judged. Not once, but most of the time. Do you know the feeling of having people said you cannot be picked because you are not pretty? Do you know the feeling of trying ways to make yourself look more presentable and all you get is negative comment? Do you know the feeling of being put to shame in front of many people? Do you, know the feeling of having people continuously said 'Famous girl who waved at everyone' but the fact is none of them can actually truly be there for you? I don't know how else could i put this in words. I am pretty sure anyone who is in the same position as me understands it that it ain't easy at all to not bother because it somehow pierced right through your brain and heart. On, Super Fun Night series, Season 1 Episode 12, Kimmy actually said it all to Kendall and right at that moment, all those questions actually played in my brain.
4. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
If happiness was the national currency, a motivator would definitely be my work because i always try so hard to make sure other people is fine, happy and motivated.
5. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you're doing?
More to settling for what i'm doing because i still couldn't get hold of what i believe in till i finally graduated.
6. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
To go for air stewardess interview. I have always dream for it because it is something i love doing, to travel and earn at the same time. Yes, i've read about the tiredness the stewardess got but i still want to experience it. :)
7. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I am the kind of person who is more worried of doing things right because i feel that it is to not do the right things but to make sure i do the things right is the most important.
8. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What's holding you back?
To go be an air stewardess and travel while working. :)
What's holding me back?
1. My studies, i can't leave my studies halfway for this because it is something very important i need to get in my life. A degree.
2. The negativity, however the negativity comes in, it is definitely there. Why? Because people NEVER stop judging. People who dislike the jobs sort of brainwash me but to me it still doesn't matter because i can let that go through my ears. Not for having, being judged continuously. Sucks.
to be continue...
Sitting in front of my laptop while getting rid of my frustration. Sorry, i cannot help having my sleep being disturbed. Nevermind, let's get over it.
Currently playing ; Brooke Fraser, Who Are We Fooling
" We tried and tried to loosen the knots
Thinking once we're untangled we'll be better off
But it's these failures and faults that hold us together "
I miss listening to Brooke Fraser though, i used to repeat her tracks over and over again at home.
Anyway, i was scrolling through pages before i slept last night and found questions that actually i felt brought out the answer in me. Here goes,
1. Which is worse, failing or never trying?
To me i felt like it is failing. I don't know how to put this in words but the feeling of how hard i tried sometimes and still fail makes me feel stupid or in more awful word, useless. Never trying, you will definitely move towards the other directions but if to try and the outcomes are failing, it sucks.
2. When it's all said and done, will you have said more than you've done?
I can't specifically answer that because we as a human tend to not realize it isnt it? BUT, i do know one thing about myself is when someone wants it, i try my very best to get it done for him or her. Yes, i feel like i am living under someone else's happiness instead because to me, i feel satisfied and happy if i successfully made someone smile.
3. What is the one thing you'd most like to change about the world?
Can i say, the people's mind? Or how most people's mind? ONE THING, i am very unhappy at is being judged. Not once, but most of the time. Do you know the feeling of having people said you cannot be picked because you are not pretty? Do you know the feeling of trying ways to make yourself look more presentable and all you get is negative comment? Do you know the feeling of being put to shame in front of many people? Do you, know the feeling of having people continuously said 'Famous girl who waved at everyone' but the fact is none of them can actually truly be there for you? I don't know how else could i put this in words. I am pretty sure anyone who is in the same position as me understands it that it ain't easy at all to not bother because it somehow pierced right through your brain and heart. On, Super Fun Night series, Season 1 Episode 12, Kimmy actually said it all to Kendall and right at that moment, all those questions actually played in my brain.
4. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
If happiness was the national currency, a motivator would definitely be my work because i always try so hard to make sure other people is fine, happy and motivated.
5. Are you doing what you believe in, or are you settling for what you're doing?
More to settling for what i'm doing because i still couldn't get hold of what i believe in till i finally graduated.
6. If the average human life span was 40 years, how would you live your life differently?
To go for air stewardess interview. I have always dream for it because it is something i love doing, to travel and earn at the same time. Yes, i've read about the tiredness the stewardess got but i still want to experience it. :)
7. Are you more worried about doing things right, or doing the right things?
I am the kind of person who is more worried of doing things right because i feel that it is to not do the right things but to make sure i do the things right is the most important.
8. What one thing have you not done that you really want to do? What's holding you back?
To go be an air stewardess and travel while working. :)
What's holding me back?
1. My studies, i can't leave my studies halfway for this because it is something very important i need to get in my life. A degree.
2. The negativity, however the negativity comes in, it is definitely there. Why? Because people NEVER stop judging. People who dislike the jobs sort of brainwash me but to me it still doesn't matter because i can let that go through my ears. Not for having, being judged continuously. Sucks.
to be continue...
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