#198 - Emptiness

3rd July

Have you ever been to somewhere filled with people and you tried to blend in but it doesnt seem to work?

Because, 

You are so afraid of rejection through the life that you feel more secure if someone starts to hold your back

Have you ever try your best cracking your mind giving idea?

Because,

You are so afraid of being left out

Have you ever tried so hard to look the best?

Because,

Whatever you try to improve on, will still be criticize by the people

Have you ever feel so useless?

Because,

People start to reject you when you cant achieve something or judge you because you aint pretty

Have you ever walk alone and trying to keep your mind positive but it didnt actually work?

Because, 

The amount of hurt you got from others who looked down on you. It is actually a lie to say 'i dont give a damn about what they actually said'. Deep down, you know how much that already hurt

Have you ever in your life felt that sense of emptiness even though you are surrounded by so many people?