YES Selection Camp

All of us definitely have that one time where we wish we could turn back so that we never did that mistake. But.. those mistakes are the one that make us learned the lesson and change to be a better person. Hmm, allow me to just tell about that very one time that i really wished to turn back. If i could turn back time, ill definitely turn back time to when AFS selection camp was. Asked me 'Do you missed selection camp?' a hundred times and my answer will still be the same. 'Yes'. I guess i don't need to explain further of what AFS is because i've did it in the previous post. :) 

I know there is no time machine, so all i can do is volunteer. To have one of the candidate of this year selection camp telling me how fun it was, i just smile and say 'Glad you had fun because this is definitely one of the best camp you can ever get'. Well, it is for me. The experienced and friends are irreplaceable. I wish i was more of an extrovert last time so that i am better at handling the interview. I can't believe how the nervousness put a silent to me after studying about the country for days. My one of a life time dream, just got screwed by me. 

Still, i never get to turn back time. It's okay, i always have this mindset that God have a better plan for me. Even if it is to comfort me or i really do believe in that, somehow, i can only step forward not backward. I just hope that in future, ill be successful not in money vise, it's to achieve what i really wanted to do ever since im young. 

This feeling i am having right now, no one can ever understand. Really. The feeling of trying so hard to achieve something and it kept pushing you down instead. I haven't really told anyone about it because i really think it doesn't matter since its my life. Well, that bittersweet feeling in me will definitely not evaporate unless finally get one of my dreams on my checklist done. Still working hard! *go go Jan*

I could only cheer for myself because i know i am the only one who will never pull myself down or to take the motivation away. So many influences but if i keep my spirit strong, ill definitely believe in the future. I can't wait for graduation already because i want to go venture into things without worrying whether if i can get a degree. 

So many people bugging me now for assignments, supper even the washing machine (heheh washing my clothes. sorry). I think i should get going before more people come and bug me to pass up assignments. Well, to anyone of you who is in the midst of giving up, remember to believe in yourself and things you can do. Because you can. ;)

Below are a few pictures from my selection camp and yes i look uber nerd and fugly. :) Haiya, high school ma. Hehehe. 

With love, Jan