Last night, i took the time for myself and think. Really think. Ive got so much worries on chasing my dreams because i am so afraid that i just wont get through it. However, they say do not thin of the negative before knowing the real thing. I guess i should really set them aside. I am thinking why have i got myself into so much of sadness when i can actually choose to be joyful. People, they are just going to be that way but me, i can change every thought in me. If people cannot make me happy, then i should allow my thoughts to be a happy one.
I should be feeling thankful. Ive got a laptop and wifi paid for just so i can update my blog everyday. While some people out there barely can afford a pencil to write. However, sometimes i rage and get so angry just when my computer start lagging or cursing away the WIFI. There goes the unhappy moments.
I should be feeling thankful that i am in the midst of finishing my degree while some people cannot even afford preschool. And there i am ranting about how they paper sucks and how the syllabus can be hard. There goes another happy moments.
I should be feeling thankful that i have such amazing dad who forge out money just so i can get to be covered in awonderful shelter and beautiful clothes. When some people out there only survive inside a tent that have holes around and using rugs as their clothes. There i am complaining about how the place truly sucks and how i wear the same clothes everyday.
I should be thankful that ive got fan, light and aircond just so i wont be sweating away and reading in the darkness. While some people used a paper to fan themselves to sleep and fire as their light source. I never stop complaining about how hot the fan is.
Ive got a lot of peer pressure by getting comments and being judged from head to toe and inside out. I get myself so unhappy because of the words peole say but i never even think of many others who suffers more than me and still smile everyday getting out of bed. Today, i realize, accept whats meant to be accepted. Not all comments are meant to follow. People will just be people. They judge. All the time but i cant let them bring me down. They should be they one that oushed me back up which in turn i should be happy.
Happy new year Jan. There's more things to discover. Dont stop believing, dont stop appreciating.
Jan
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