24th February 2015

I am finally sitting down with my laptop updating my blog. There are a few reasons that made me lazy to open up my laptop and blog. I still dislikes blogging through phones. I am currently looking for a home-based trust-able part time job so that i won't rot at home. Besides, i can also earn part time income. Let the search begins. By the way, i am actually on my semester break which is probably the longest break i ever got in my entire university life. 6 weeks. 5 days are closed enough for me to rot at home, what more about 6 weeks. I hate staying at home just not doing anything because it will make me think a lot. A lot of what? Nonsense. Now that i am going to be an extending student, got me thinking even harder about my life. 

To be really honest, i cannot get over the though that i am extending. I know to some people, it is not the end of the world. However, i really want to start working. Don't think i am crazy, but i think i am not a studying material. I can understand but not memorize the whole freaking thing and just reapply in exam. Lecturers always say, understand, not memorize. Problem is, there are like tons of terms to remember. While i wait patiently for my graduation semester, i am slowly adjusting myself a little bit to be prepared for the working world. My readers would know what my dream is and i am definitely hoping it will come true. Responses i get from telling a few people, aren't that welcoming but i don't want that to pull me hopes down. I will fight and do my best just to achieve my dreams. I do wish though i am rich or maybe have some part time income. 

You must be wondering what i want to do with it. Maybe a small makeover? From my head to toe. Travelling. Alone. Yes. Alone. I always wanted to try going or a small getaway alone but i don't have the finance to. Patience is virtue. I know not many can motivate me when i am really down. Only a few with comforting words do. So, i always pat myself on the back and tell myself, be strong because the usual tagline 'everything happens for a reason'. No matter how things are going i definitely have to accept it and go with the flow. I don't like to frown or cry in front of people, but when i do i have come to my limits of holding back. I said this before last time. From time to time, i only can tell myself to breathe and support myself mentally. The normal procedure is, breathe, heads up, smile and just don't take in negativity that brings me down. 

So, now, here goes. Breathe. Heads up. Smile. 

      

Sign off, Jan