Chin up!

Evening readers. :) It's 6pm here and i hope that everyone is doing good. Today was another day of class. One class and it ended at 2pm. As usual class was boring, people yawning, playing games with their phones and pads. 

It's another day over-thinking in front of the laptop again. Sometimes it's not that i, myself want or even asked for it. It's just when something pops up, and then you just don't know why it turn out this way. First, i might over-think. Second, i caused all of that. Third, it just happen. I don't know. I have come to a point that i don't get what is my mistakes, what i really want and what have got me into all this. 

Did i try to shine out in front of everyone? I don't know. I just know that i tried to pleased everyone more than pleasing myself. When everyone around me is happy, i am too. Wait. Am i? I realize i always have this thing where, i want to try my best to make everyone happy and help them when they need one. If i failed doing it, they will be sad, and i will too. 

This thought came in to me, i need to make myself happy first before i make others happy. Care-less. Be happy. Love more. Give more. It's so hard to turn back time and start over again but i know there's time for changes. Prolly it's gonna be hard but there's no harm in trying. Dear readers, are you guys facing something like this too? 

To those who will be facing the real society soon, all the best. Remember to just be yourself. Do not fake just because i want to stand out in front people. You get all the attention, and so? I am sorry but they are not going to live with you until you die. So think of pleasing yourself, do whatever thing that makes you happy. ILLEGAL things. Just hope that everything will be fine with you and when there's opinions about you, accept it. Change it. Opinions makes you a better person. And don't forget. SMILE. :) 

So far, it's till here. Hope that you will do great wherever you will be. Have a great day! Sincerely, Jan.